I'm new to this, and I just needed to get something off my chest, all I can think of lately is my ex boyfriend that I spent 4 years with, and just why??? I mean so much happened, I actually went to a mental hospital cause of him, and I'm still wondering about him. The other thing on my mind is why I'm not getting justice? My moms ex boyfriend raped me for 7 years, from the time I was 8 till when I was 15, and I get no justice? My psychiatrist told me that they can't do anything because I didn't say anything till I was like 17..so I get to be the one that gets to live with what he did, and he gets to live another day, and be happy. Basically, I am so depressed right now, I've written so much about both of them, and I just don't know what to do, like I am not whole, I have this space inside me that I can't fill with any amount of drugs, sex, or alcohol, and that sucks! I have an appointment with a new psych tommorow, I hope I make it, and maybe he can give me some Zoloft so I can be SANE again!